Tuesday I am supposed to get a full disclosure from my husband at his therapist’s office. He has been preparing for about 3 weeks. He is going way back – from his first acting out through today. I am nervous because I don’t know everything that is going to come out. Our MC is back from his medical leave, so I am glad to have his support. I have seen him for IC and I know if I need extra support he can offer it. I have a knot in my stomach just thinking about it, though.
In the meantime, I’m trying to focus on all the positive things happening to relieve some anxiety. Today was incredibly nice. We slept in, had a “roll in the hay,” then my husband went out to pick up coffee and came back with flowers for me. We went to a winery tour, tasting and picnic in the afternoon. On the way up we talked and laughed. We touched, kissed, and were close emotionally all day. The weather was as perfect as it has ever been, we purchased several bottles of delicious wine from 2 wineries, and dinner was amazing. It was a fantastic day.
For now, that’s what I’m focused on… Our present progress and where our future will take us. I’m hoping that the full disclosure can create closure on the past and help me feel more trust in my husband. This entire process has been hard for him, too, I’m sure, although he hasn’t complained once.
I know I promised to give some details and pictures from our anniversary, and I will do it soon. I just want to bask in the glow of my wonderful day for now. Hope the rest of your weekend is great!