Last week a blogger I follow posted about a Vulnerability Assessment from her marriage counselor. I was instantly intrigued. She pointed out that Vulnerability + Opportunity = Affair. That makes sense, although the reality is probably a tiny bit more complicated.
Those do seem like the basic questions to ask yourself, though – how vulnerable are you to being led astray and what kind of opportunity do you have to act on that vulnerability. Those two things together are important to the equation. Having lots of opportunity to cheat doesn’t necessarily mean that you will. Similarly, being vulnerable to an affair doesn’t guarantee you will have one. Someone can also be vulnerable and make their own opportunity or have so much opportunity that it creates a vulnerability. However, if you mix equal parts vulnerability to an affair and opportunity to have one, it is obviously a recipe for disaster.
That made me wonder… Just how vulnerable am I?
If I had to guess, I would say that I probably have a fairly high score on that assessment. My husband is a sex addict, so his cycles and behaviors have definitely put him at a high risk overall. But what about me?
Certainly, according to the small snapshot she shared, I would answer “True” more often than I would like. Just look at some of this stuff… Did you know you are at increased risk of having an affair simply if:
- you have a Facebook account?
- you have been dealing with stress (family, illness, work, marriage, new job)?
- you have moved?
- you have had to deal with the loss of a parent, child, sibling, pet, close friend, family member?
- you have dealt with or are dealing with a physical/emotional illness (stress, depression, low self-esteem)?
- you feel taken for granted or taken advantage of at work, at home, in life?
- you have had to deal with children that are teenagers, rebellious, or unruly?
- you have felt self-conscious of aging, a bulging mid-section, receding hairline, sagging breasts, erectile dysfunction, major weight loss/gain?
- you have felt sexually inadequate or second-rate in bed?
- you confide easily in others?
- you lack clear goals or dreams or sense of purpose for your life?
- you have thought or spoke negatively about yourself?
- you have a lack of self-awareness concerning infidelity, such as:
- “This couldn’t happen to me.”
- “I’m committed to working on my marriage.”
- “No one would be interested in me.”
- “I would recognize the signs.”
- “I can be his/her friend only.”
- “He/She is only a friend.”
- “He/She is not attractive to me, so this is OK.”
- “We are both married.” [As if that totally rules it out…]
- “This will not get out of hand.”
- you have a high need for affirmation from others in your life?
- you feel sorry for yourself?
- you often see things as ALL or NOTHING?
- you are unable to communicate your thoughts and emotions to your spouse? perhaps you have been dishonest with them about difficult issues because you fear them rejecting you or punishing you, or because you think it will protect them…”What they don’t know won’t hurt.”)
- compared to others, you view yourself as: morally superior, smarter than, or more self-aware?
- your spouse embarrasses you in public?
- your marriage is “keeping up the image” to others?
- you have felt your sex life lacked quality, passion or adventure, and/or it has not been frequent enough?
- you are disconnected sexually because of emotional starvation?
- you have married friends who complain about their marriages?
- you spend time alone?
I definitely don’t have all of them, not even half, but several of them stood out. This is also not the entire list. She got a HUGE list of almost 250 characteristics that can make you vulnerable to an affair, and chose just to share some of the ones that she found the most surprising or that made the most sense.
If I spent time alone I’m more vulnerable to an affair? Huh? If it’s on there, though, there must be a reason. I think it is important to remember all of the little ways we can become vulnerable – to an affair, but also to drifting apart from our partner. Each of these things is part of a bigger picture. Too many of them together can mean that you are opening yourself up to stray, or even just to become estranged from your spouse. The moral of the story is:
Expose your weaknesses before the lies become believable.
I am about to head into the therapist’s office to have my husband give me a full disclosure of his acting out behavior. I am nervous. There are all sorts of thoughts and emotions swirling around inside me. One thing I have been keeping in the forefront of my brain is that the roles could easily be reversed. If I had a different childhood, if I were treated or raised differently, if I had chosen to cope with sex or porn instead of shopping or eating, if any number of things had happened… this could be me today. I am going to try my hardest to leave all judgement at the door. We have walked down different paths. We have experienced life differently. The things we have been through brought us together, and we are moving forward hand in hand.
What’s that saying… “But for the grace of God go I.” I may not believe in God, but I do believe that none of us can be positive that we aren’t vulnerable to being that person we despise, pity, hate, laugh at, etc… I am going to try to hold onto that renewed sense of humility and self-awareness as I listen with an open heart to the things my husband has struggled with in his past. Wish me luck.
- the vulnerability scale (persuaded2go.wordpress.com)
- Vulnerability (affaircare.com)
- Sex is the “glue” in a marriage (recoveringwayward.wordpress.com)
- Marriage Communication: 3 Common Mistakes and How To Fix Them (Krull, 2012) (lydedistribution.com)
- Is Talking Cheating? Truth Or Myth (everythinggirlsloveblog.com)