I made this a featured post yesterday, but I wanted to reblog it tonight because 2 months later this is still where I am in the process – acceptance. I read my post and the comments again, and they are still very true for where I am now. The main difference is that I’m not feeling the anger that I was before. I think that’s progress, however small.
It is hard to feel safe when another person’s actions can rock your world, and it is out of your control. I am struggling to find a way to detach myself, my happiness, and my feeling of safety from the actions of my husband. It is much easier said than done, but I have realized this week that it is necessary. I just can’t keep living the way I have been, with my emotions so tied to what he does (or doesn’t) do. I think that means I have to accept a few things that I’ve been trying very hard not to.
For one thing, I have to accept that my husband is unreliable right now. I have to accept that he has a lot to do before he will be. And I need to stop treating him like he is a reliable, trustworthy person that I can depend on. …
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